Sha my baby boy...he is growing so much. I can't believe that I am actually getting used to being his mommmy. I never thought that would happen. I thought that it would be hard forever. Now don't get me wrong, everyday is challenging in some way, but the little things are getting easier (like eating and going to the bathroom). I am trying to trust myself and know that I do know how to take care of my own child. I am not have as much anxiety over when he cries. The breastfeeding is still pretty hard though. I didn't think it would be this hard, but it has turned out to be the hardest thing (so far) about having him. He doesn't suck as well as he should and I struggle with low milk supply. I am learning to relax about that as well though. He seems to be satisfied after I feed him and he is definitely gaining weight so I am not super worried about it. The best thing about breastfeeding though is that it is helping me to lose weight. I love that part. I weigh less now then when I did before I got pregnant with him. It is great!!! We have been doing the Ferber method with him and he is really responding to it. I can now put him in his car seat and he will go to sleep by himself. That totally frees up some mommy time. I don't have to worry anymore about him waking up when I put him down (from rocking him). He doesn't like to be rocked anyway so it seemed like a good time to teach him to sleep on his own. Just now he fell asleep on the floor by himself while playing with his toy. He looks so cute just lying there on his little quilt. I am definitely bonding with him better lately. He will be 4 months soon and I am loving the way that I can interact with him more now. He grabs at things and has started giggling when I play with him. He has been so fun and in a much better mood lately. Last month he learned how to roll from his back to his tummy. I am hoping he learns how to roll the other way soon too. I can't get over how he learns things so quickly. He amazes me everyday.
Sorry for just rambling on and on...I just write down the thoughts as they come to me... LOL!!
I hope everyone has a great day...do something creative!! :)