I haven't really had much inspiration to write lately. I am trying to get my head on straight right now. My depression has started to act up again so I got back on my old medicine and it is helping so far. Hopefully this works for a while b/c I am tired of going to the doctor. I have been to the doctor more this year then I have my entire life (all because of my depression). I guess it's good that I am trying to do something about it though. I know lots of people worry about me and want me to be happy, but I will tell you, the only thing you can do to help me is to pray for me. This is something I will have to take care of on my own. I bought a "depression map" workbook. I find that it is helping me. You have to answer questions and rate your symptoms and things like that and it tells you exactly what chapters to look at for your solutions. I like it because it feels more personal. Depression is different for everyone and I like that it isn't just a general idea of what depression should be. It is actually a book for my own symptoms and things. So, that's what I have been working on...finding my own solutions to help myself out. The only person who can change my thinking, behavior, etc. is me and that will take me a very, very long time. I might never be 100% back to normal, but at least I can be most days.
This is even a big step for me, I normally don't like people to know my problems, but here I am putting it out there for anyone to read. I am also taking those art classes, I would have never done that before. I am just taking tiny steps right now toward me getting well, anything else would overwhelm me.
Does anyone else suffer from depression and maybe have any suggestions to feeling "normal"? Just wondering...I like to hear from everyone out there. I always learn something new.