Sunday, April 5, 2015

ZZZZZZ........

I am just so tired... my daughter has been sick since Friday (with I think a bladder infection or something along those lines). She was complaining of belly aches and crying after she peed. I didn't know what was wrong with her. She even threw up on Friday night. As of today, she isn't complaining as much of pain anymore. Now, it is just a fever she has. I hate when I have to keep her medicated b/c she has a fever. It sucks! I know that it helps her to feel better but I just hate having her constantly on meds until it goes away... It isn't too high thank goodness, but it is high enough to make her feel bad. I am so hoping that she is better really soon and that the fever starts going away tomorrow. We did a urine culture to check for an infection so I am just hoping that something shows up. That way we would have an answer, she would get an antibiotic and just get better. If the culture shows nothing and the fever continues, then we will have to run more tests and take her to the doctor again and I really don't want to do that. I just want her better. It is hard to see your child miserable when they are sick. So, that is where I am at tonight. I am staying awake just a little longer so I can check her temperature and give her another dose of advil so she can sleep well...hopefully I will get to sleep well tonight too. I am just so tired......

I'm sorry if this is just rambling and doesn't make too much sense, but as I said...I am just so tired...

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Breakfast Burritos

I have been wanting to get in the kitchen and prep some breakfast foods for my hubby and I. Something that would be easy for him to heat up and eat on the go. I decided to make breakfast burritos! I finally got to the store to get some tortillas.

This morning, I got up and started cooking. I sauted grated carrots, a bag of frozen spinach, shredded mushrooms and pork sausage crumbles. I also cooked about 8 eggs (mixed with spinach juice). I grated 2 kinds of cheese, got out my Taco sauce packets, and the salsa. You can see my ingredients and set up in this pic. :)


I made myself an assembly line and got to work...

Don't they look delicious?!? We ended up eating some for breakfast right after I made them and we really enjoyed them. They were so good. It was a nice healthy and hearty breakfast for us! 

I ended up getting about 15 of them which isn't too bad. I will definitely be doing this again. I am actually looking forward to experimenting with different ingredients to put into the burrito.

Do you do any kind of meal prep for your breakfast? Have you ever made breakfast burritos like this? I would love to hear from you. 

Friday, March 6, 2015

Homemade toothpaste...

As you know, I have taken the time to make lots of things in my home more natural. I am trying to get away from all the store bought ingredients, fragrances and general toxins that we buy in a lot of our things. I have made my own laundry detergent for years now. I have also made my own deodorant (the baking soda gave me a rash so now I just use a salt crystal). I make my own cleaning supplies with orange peels soaked in vinegar. I try to make as much of our own food as we can...homemade yogurt, tortillas, etc. And I have just recently ventured into using Young Living Essential Oils as part of my household now. I use them for everything!

One of the things I have been meaning to try for a while is toothpaste. I have been buying different "natural" brands that I could find, but they still have some questionable ingredients that I would like to avoid. So, today I made my own toothpaste.... (I got this recipe from pinterest).

1 part coconut oil
1 part baking soda
about 1 tsp. hydrogen peroxide
stevia (optional)
peppermint essential oils (to taste)

I was all set on this working and being my new toothpaste but then I tried it...YUCK!!!! I cannot get past the taste of the baking soda. It was so bitter and salty. Gross! After I tried it, I added 2 packs of stevia and it was a little better. I don't think that this is something I could use every single day, but I think I could use it a couple times a week or so. Maybe my hubby will like it because he likes bitter tasting things. I am gonna make him try it out tonight.

If you try it (or a similar recipe to this one) let me know what you think in the comments below. I would love to hear from you. :)

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

It's a colorful life...

It was passed time for me to dye my hair again. The turquoise had long faded out and my roots were a good 3 inches grown out. I wanted bright, festive colors for the upcoming spring weather. I chose blue because I just love this color and I decided to put purple in the back just for fun.

I totally love it! It was pretty challenging for me to do by myself because my hair had gotten longer and it's so hard to see in the back. It's hard to make sure I get all my roots with my hair being so thick and all but I did it. I won't be doing it again though. I think while my hair is long I will just stick to highlights or just doing the crown of my head. Hopefully this color will last awhile. :)

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Art Journaling

I have not done any art journaling in awhile. I just haven't had much time...especially now with Christmas coming up. I did a few pages and backgrounds this morning but I had to get up at 5am to do it. It was okay though because I couldn't sleep anyway. It is nice to be able to escape with my paints every once in awhile. :)






Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 is here!!!!

My resolutions/goals/what I want to accomplish in 2015:

1. Move more everyday (sit less)
*I need to just sit less during the day. I need to go on more walks or exercise more with the kids. I need to play more with them on the floor.

2. Read 1 book per month (any kind)
*This will equal me watching less tv during the day and will mean that I am on my phone less. That will help with goal #1 too.

3. Learn to like vegetables and eat more of them
*I do like lots of veggies in general, but I want to eat them more often and find different ways of cooking them so that I don't get tired of them as quickly.

4. Be able to run/jog 1 full mile
*I have always wanted to run. I don't know why. I dream about running sometimes. It's crazy! I can run (more like jog), but my problem is that I want to do too much too fast. I will not do that this year. I am going to go at my own pace and not force my body to do something it can't right now. I will go slow and eventually I will get to 1 full mile of running.

5. Go with the flow
*I try to plan too much and they don't usually work out. I can't plan things with little kids. I can't worry about every little thing that happens. I need to just go with things sometimes and have fun!

6. Declutter more stuff
*I have way too much stuff just lying around. I don't even use most of it, I just keep it for "just in case I need it". I need to get rid of all those extra things to make more room in my life for other things that matter.

What are your resolutions for this year? I would love to hear about them in the comments! :)

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas!

It's Christmas morning and I am sitting here in the dark in total silence except for the sound of my own thoughts. It's about an hour before everyone else will wake up and I just can't sleep anymore. I am too excited! There is anticipation balled up inside me and ready to burst out at any moment. I love giving gifts to my family. I love waiting to see them open something I made or bought them and hoping that they will love it. It's weird, but I actually get a little sad when everything is opened and the anticipation is gone. Everyone else is fast asleep and dreaming. Soon they will be awake and ready to rip open the paper packages and be together with everyone. We will put the coffee maker on and put the breakfast casserole in the oven. It will all be ready by the time we are done. I love our little traditions and memories that we are creating together. I am so grateful for the family we have. My life is so blessed.

I hope you have a Merry Christmas! Make the most of it because it sure comes around fast... :)

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Get outta this funk!!!!

My brain has been MIA lately. I feel like I cannot get myself together! I haven't been able to cook because I just can't decide what to make. I am sick of everything I have been cooking and want to make some new stuff, but it's hard when you have lots of allergies in the family. I will have to force myself to actually plan somethings. I feel like I am in a funk. I don't really want to do ANYTHING at all...even if it is "fun". I just want to sit here...which does not really work when you have 2 young, active kids. I can't sit here all day and do essentially nothing. They need me. I have to play with them, read to them, teach them, and help them. I don't mind any of that. In fact I really do love to do it, but I need to get myself out of this funk I am in. I am sorry if none of this makes any sense...I am just typing out my feelings and what is coming to me. I don't know if it is my depression or just stress from everyday life wanting me to shut down but it is something and I have to figure it out. What do you do to get yourself out of a funk? I am very blessed, but I still feel like my life isn't how I want it to be, but I know that I am the only one responsible for changing it. I am the only one who can make my life different and I'm working on it. I am working on making slow changes. Right now I am focusing on discipline of the kids. And maybe that is why my brain can't focus on anything else right now, because discipline is hard man!! It is the hardest thing I will ever do in my life. I have to teach my kids how to be good people and grow up learning responsibility and self discipline and self control. Man...it's just hard. There is no other way to say it. It's a full time job just doing that. I don't have room in my brain right now to worry about cooking, cleaning, taking care of myself, but somehow I have to do all of it. Thank goodness I have a great hubby and family around to help me. I think I would COMPLETELY fall apart if I didn't...Because I have them, I am allowed to fall apart a little, sometimes, but I always have to pull myself back together because they need me.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

To my older self.....

I got the idea to write this from MammyWoo's blog post this morning...I hope you like it.

Dear 40 year old me,
 How are you doing? I hope that you are well. I hope that you are happy. I hope that you are content with your life. I am not all the time, but I am getting there. I am slowly learning how to live better and be happier with the everyday "mundane" things. I hope that you have embraced your life as a mother and that you have finally learned how to be calm about most things. I hope you are finally on a healthy living path because I am not right now. Do you exercise regularly and eat all your veggies and fruits? I hope so because that's what I am slowly trying to figure out how to do and I hope that I have figured it all out by the time I am you. I hope that you have a good relationship with J and A. You have them now and they are teenagers!! Did I do a good job with them? I worry about that everyday. I hope I taught them how to be patient and well adjusted to changes in life. I hope I have taught them to live a healthy life. I hope that I did a good job with their homeschooling and they are learning everything that they should know about the world. I wish you could tell me if I have done a good job as a mother so that I can stop worrying about that. Can you just give me a hint? I hope that you don't regret everyday the decision we have made about having more children. I haven't fully decided yet, but I hope that 37yr old us has and is happy with her decision. I just want you to not have any regrets about any decisions that I have made. I am going to have to think of you in the future and make my decisions based on you and what you would like to have...can you let me know what exactly that would be? I hope you have finally learned to love yourself and embrace all of your "flaws". And most of all I just hope you are living the life that you always thought you would have.
Love,
your younger self

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Canning Satsumas

Every year my family and I try to think of different ways to use the massive amount of satsumas we get from my dad's tree. Usually we eat all we can and just juice the rest or my mom makes satsuma marmalade. This year she found a recipe to can them.


It took us ALL DAY LONG! First you have to peel them and use a knife to scrape all the pith off. If you leave it then your satsumas will be bitter. That step takes the longest. 


Then mom made a extra light simple syrup to pour over them and she processed the jars in the water bath canner for 10 min. 


We ended up with 14 quart size jars. We did 2 batches today. We will probably do more later on when we have some more time. 
      

When we were all done, mom researched different ways to use the orange peels because we didn't want to waste anything. So we are soaking them in vinegar to make a concentrate that will become a house cleaner. I also put some peels in my vodka to flavor it. ;) Our hands will smell like orange for a week!! Haha

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Reality...

I am just sitting here in my pjs and playing on the computer. The kids are having breakfast and watching Frozen for the umpteenth time, but it's ok because I love this movie. There are a few things to pick up and some clothes to fold but other then that I don't have that much to do today. I plan on playing with the kids later (maybe build a block tower) and prepping a few things for lunch and supper, also I need to do some schoolwork with J4. Tonight is knit night so I will have to take a shower at some point today. I will probably do it while the kids are napping and it will be a little warmer this afternoon. I hate the cold weather and being cold. I wish I had enough wood to light a fire everyday cuz I would. It keeps the living room warm, I just wish it warmed up the bedrooms...oh well. I guess I should get up now and get the day started. I need to eat breakfast and start my chores.

Monday, November 17, 2014

It's OK....

I have been searching my brain trying to think about things to blog about or a direction that I want this blog to go into, but I just can't think of anything specific. I have already tried to change the theme and stuff, but I ended up just putting it right back how it was. I have decided that I am just going to continue writing about my life because it's all I have. My husband, my kids, my family...it's all I know and that's ok. I don't have to write about anything super specific. I can just write about what is going on in my life at the moment. This blog is for me and I shouldn't care if other people want to read it or comment or anything. I toyed with the idea of printing out my blog posts and deleting it completely, but I have decided against it. It just seems like an enormous amount of work (not to mention paper and ink) to print out several years of blog posts. I am just going to leave it up here. The internet isn't going anywhere and I can just write when I feel like it and go back and read all the blog posts anytime I want to.

Anyway...I know that I am blabbing. I just wanted to write a quick something before I got up to fold some clothes. That is what my Monday will consist of...folding clothes, playing and taking care of my kids. It's all just pretty normal stuff and that's OK. My life doesn't have to be super fun and glamorous all the time. I am learning to find happiness and contentment in the everyday life.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Back in the Saddle....

I have renewed my commitment to my "being healthy"! I got rid of my scale and I am going to try my best not to worry about the number anymore. It doesn't matter. I just want to feel fit and be able to move easier during the day. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. My body can do these things, but my emotions/hormones fight against me!! I am slowly trying to learn how to not let those things be in charge! Life is too short to be depressed and upset about everything. I want to have fun and not worry about stuff! Changing myself will be/is a slow process, but I am trying and it's better than doing nothing at all. I am trying to make better decisions for myself everyday. It might be easier this time because my hubby is making some of these changes with me. He is exercising and we are all trying to eat healthier as a family. That is what matters. I want us to be together on this...it will make it easier. This morning I woke up and rode 30 minutes on my spin bike. I really really didn't feel like it, but I did it! I keep telling myself...the more I move, the more that my body will want to move. :) 

Today is Monday, so this is the day I normally get most of my chores done.
1. Get clothes washed (as long as it doesn't rain then I can hang them outside)
2. dishes
3. cook supper
4. exercise
5. clean out my bathroom cabinet
6. schoolwork with the kids

What do you have planned today? What have you done lately to be healthier?

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Summertime...

I love summer! I bought an ice cream maker and I have tried several different recipes in it so far. Here you see chocolate. Yummy!!


It came out awesome! So much better then store bought. 


My new favorite chore is hanging my clothes outside. My hubby built me this clothesline and it is awesome! It works perfectly for what I need. I hang out a batch or 2 of clothes...usually everyday (unless it's raining of course). My clothes smell fresh and clean straight off the line and they are so warm.


What is your favorite thing about this summer?

Friday, June 20, 2014

All the feelings...

I did not edit this or even go back and read it. I just let the thoughts flow out of my brain and through my fingers so that I could maybe get some sleep. There are just too many thoughts in here. Negative ones and they need to be replaced. 

I can't sleep or at least I don't want to sleep right now. I am having all the feelings at the moment...I feel for no reason...and if I go to sleep then they will all just be buried again and they will just resurface later for me to deal with then. I have to learn to just deal with my feelings as they come up and not to just bury them down deep inside. Even though I don't really feel like my feelings are valid enough...obviously I am having them for a reason. Feelings are for a reason right. I can't just keep burying them and not talking about them. I have to learn to talk about my feelings...even if I think they are stupid and I shouldn't be having them. I can't just bury them. They will just keep resurfacing.  Sorry if you are reading this and you are confused. I am just typing everything that is coming to my mind and everything that I am thinking about right now because I can't sleep. If I don't think about what is inside of me then I will just bury it all and I don't think my heart can take it. I guess that's why I feel like I'm always eating because it's easier then feeling the feelings that I don't think I should have. I have to learn to get over this!! I have many many people who love me and want to help me but I don't let them. I don't feel like I deserve their help and I am embarrassed to admit that I am having problems. I feel like I shouldn't because I have a great life and I shouldn't feel the things I do. A lot of people have so so many more problems then me that I shouldn't have anything to complain about. I shouldn't express the way I feel or what I want to and I should just be grateful for everything I have and I am...don't get me wrong but then why do these things come up inside my head all the time. I can be so much better then I  am and for some reason I don't make the effort to be. I need to search inside myself and discover why? I need to discover what is wrong with me and why I completely feel the way that i do. If you are still here I am sorry that you had to sit through all of this mumbling and rambling on and on about practically nothing but I have learned that sometimes you just have to put the thoughts out of your head and let other people have them so that they don't make you crazy. Maybe everytime someone else reads this, it gives my words and feelings a little less power over me. I really wish that were true. 

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Homemade Liquid Laundry Detergent

I have been making my own laundry detergent for awhile now, but normally I make a powdered version. I decided to make a liquid one this time because it uses less ingredients and I think it will last me a lot longer. This is not my recipe, it is the Dugger's recipe. I got it out of their book 20 and Counting.

First I gathered all my ingredients...Washing soda, Borax and 1 bar of Fels Naptha soap.

Grate the bar of Fels Naptha.

Place the soap shavings in a pot and cover with water.

Stir continuously until all the soap is melted and their is no longer any clumps of soap in the water. 

It will come out nice and smooth.

While the soap is melting, place the other ingredients in a 5 gallon bucket. 1 cup Washing Soda and 1/2 cup of Borax. 


After the soap is completely melted pour the hot soap over the powder and stir until all the powder is dissolved. I had to stir this for a little while.

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Next, I filled up the bucket with hot tap water. I tried to spray on the sides so it wouldn't get too sudsy on top. (I learned this the hard way haha).

Stir the bucket with whatever you can find. The only thing I had long enough was my fly swatter. Haha

It will end up a very smooth mixture. Cover and let it sit overnight so it can gel up. 

Once the mixture has sat overnight, I stirred it all up. It was a little challenging cuz it was really gelled up but it worked. I would have just needed a more firm stick to stir with. 


When it was all stirred up and not as clumpy, I used a measuring cup and poured the mixture into a gallon jug. I filled it up half way. 

Then you fill the rest of the way up with water to make a full gallon of liquid detergent. Shake before using.

I am very excited about my laundry detergent. I have used it a couple times already and am very pleased with the results. My clothes have come out clean...just like when I use the powder version. I hope you enjoy this tutorial and try to make you own detergent. I am expecting this batch to last me anywhere from 6-8 months. :)

Thursday, June 5, 2014

I'm getting it!!!

Here is where I am at so far.... I WILL finish this by the summer! :)

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Exercise

I found my Fitbit yesterday! It was in the hamper the whole time...I had looked through it a couple times, but I was just checking pants pockets (that's normally where I keep it). This time it was attached to a shirt. haha I'm so excited to count my steps again! I kinda felt lost without it. I will get 10,000 today...even if I have to march in place a lot! I haven't really been exercising like I should though. I am getting some real movement a couple times a week (which is good for me, usually I don't really exercise at all), but I want to increase my exercise time. I want to make sure that I get at least 8-10,000 steps a day and then do a video or something. I have NO EXCUSE not to exercise (except that I am pretty lazy sometimes) and that is not an excuse! I have plenty of free time and I can even take a walk with the kids. If I am really serious about losing weight then I need to get on board and move more often!! I just have to. I really, really would like to start jogging. I see other people jogging and I think that is something I would like to do, but then I get on the treadmill and I am really bored with it. I know that is totally an excuse, but I am.

I am reading that book Women, Food and God right now and it is helping me to get more in tune with my body and what it is telling me. I think I am going to jog today and listen to my body this time and see if it feels good to jog. I am going to get on the treadmill when the kids have nap time. That will be a good time. Let's see how many steps I can get then. :)

What kind of exercise do you do? Do you get some real movement in everyday or just a few times a week? I am trying to find a way to be more consistent. I think I might do the "100 miles of cardio" challenge I made up for myself a couple years ago (that I never finished). I will have to tweak it though to work with now. I am always starting things that I never finish, but that has to be something that I change!!! My brain keeps reminding me that I am a failure and I can't let that happen. I am NOT a failure...I am just not totally commited all the time...actually up until recently I haven't been really commited to anything! That needs to change...

I AM GOING TO COMMIT TO DOING 100 MILES OF CARDIO THIS SUMMER!!!! I am commiting to this!!!! I am going to do this because I want to! I NEED TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN FINISH SOMETHING FOR ONCE!!!

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Weight loss....

I am going to attempt to write a blog post today before anything can interrupt me. It may not make any sense b/c I still can't get things right in my head, but at least I am going to write something...

I have been on the "weight loss" track again. I started a few months ago. I am gung ho about watching what I eat for about a day and then I give up. I do that over and over...all the time. This time though, I haven't given up. I may have stopped for a few days and then I get right back on track. My scale went down a little bit, but its pretty much staying where it is right now. I feel like the number will never go down and I KNOW that is my fault because I don't really do anything about it. I feel like there are so many "diets" and so much advice swimming around in my head that I can't get it all straight and I just don't know how or what to eat anymore... For the passed few weeks I had started using my Fitbit again. I love my Fitbit. I was getting a pretty good amount of steps every day too and I was motivated, but on Tuesday I lost it. The damn thing is so little that I don't know where it is. I have looked everywhere. I know that it will turn up again, but until then I am stuck without my motivation...again. I put on my heart rate monitor today thinking that I could watch how many calories I burn today. I thought that would help me. I am slowly finding more motivation inside myself. I have been getting any book I can about losing weight and emotional eating and I have been reading and taking notes like crazy! I think that it is helping me to just keep it in my mind all day. I have also been watching extreme makeover weight loss edition online. Those are inspiring as well. I love seeing their transformation (even though I know that it isn't feasible for me to lose weight that way). Right now I am reading the book Women, Food and God. I am loving it. It is showing me how and why I eat when I am not hungry. I eat for all the wrong reasons. It is helping me to stop and think before I grab something to eat...Am I REALLY hungry or am I just bored, sad, depressed, etc? That has helped me this week. All I can do is stay on this road I am on right now and hope for the best. As long as I can get a little bit of exercise in during the day and watch what I am eating most of the time then I think I will be alright. Just so long as I stay off the stupid scale!!! That is what makes me upset. I need to remember that it is just a number. It does not define me!

Monday, May 19, 2014

Loss for words...

have been at such a loss for words lately. I am having a problem knowing what to write about. Even when I have a subject I just can't seem to think how to write about it.

I think there are just lots of things I am trying to work through right now and I just don't know how to share it. I will definitely get back to writing soon...I miss blogging about things.

I am just trying to find a balance with everything in my life and blogging has been the last thing on my list. I usually just skip it.